I haven’t had much time to write anything recently as I’m in the final few months of my degree and that is taking up all my time, energy or mental resources. However I have been going to my weekly workshop and at the last one I came up with these around the theme of eclipse. I hope you enjoy them J
At once I am a storm
And the cause of the storm
I am a paradox
Causing and creating
The storm I am in
A storm of such violence and passion
It threatens to consume
Everything I know and
Spit it out so
That nothing remains
Except the light
At the end of the tunnel
As sure as the
Cow jumped over the moon
The eclipse stopped
The sun from spying
On its minions below
Like a total eclipse of the sun
I blocked out the memory of you
And the way you left behind
Your smiles festering in the
Dirty washing up that still
Remains there to this day
A thick brown sludge that
Smirks knowingly at me
Can 30 years of living
A life in a cloud filled
With droplets of acid
Be eclipsed with a drop
Of sweat falling to the earth
And showing the flower
The way to the sun…
In the final solution
The only solution
Is to eclipse all
Solutions that have
Gone before
You eclipsed my life
With the touch of
Your hand on my face
Yesterday so soft and gentle
Today destroying everything
I understand and take for granted
As your heart turns from a
Passionate, intense warmth to a
Chill that breaks bones, rips skin
And I am trapped by the fear
Of today vicious and violent
And the memories of the past
Distant and carefree
I wake up in wet grass
That rots my sweaty skin
Tears of green stained on my face
As I stare at a flock of birds
Going round and round in circles
Forever and ever as a
Thin white light pierces a leaf
Trying in vain to warm a butterfly
Through the grey chilled air
That sends my dimpled skin
Into spasms as it tries vainly
To keep warm and stop my
Mind from freezing over
The Autistic FellRunner 