Running with Autism Blog 9

Me and my sofa

Up until a couple of weeks ago I didn’t have a sofa and hadn’t had one for at least 11 years. I spent my days and evenings sat at my computer desk on my laptop with the TV on concentrating on neither and gently frying my brain. I had no concentration, no focus, was tired all the time and had pains in my legs from sitting in the same position day in, day out. I was drinking heavily too, mainly out of boredom and playing games on my laptop that only increased my anxiety as I tried to get a perfect score. Everything in my life was suffering especially my sleep as I couldn’t switch off at night and would lie in bed worrying about everything.

Then the other week my friend gave me her old sofa and my life has been transformed. It’s far from new but in good condition and perfect for me. I now have a space where I can relax and fall asleep watching TV or reading a book and somewhere, where I can escape from my laptop and switch off from life. I’ve been spending a lot of time on it watching TV without any other distractions and where I can unwind properly.

The results are there already. My sleep is improving, I’m feeling more alert and focused, my concentration is returning and my legs are feeling better from not being in the same position all day. Last night saw the biggest change yet. I fell asleep on the sofa woke up and went to bed around 9pm. I didn’t have a single drop of alcohol and what was even better for me was I didn’t want one. This wasn’t a conscious decision either, it just happened. I went to bed and then realised I hadn’t even thought about alcohol. This for me is the biggest benefit yet because if I can replace alcohol with a sofa I’ll have made the biggest change to my life for a very long time.

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