Saturday, 15 July 2023
This time last Saturday was the last time I had an alcoholic drink, a full six days alcohol free and sober and the changes have been dramatic to say the least. I’m seeing the world through eyes that are clear and not clouded by alcohol. I’m feeling more alert, more focused and my concentration has improved although it is still poor! My thinking is so much better, clearer, focused and more aware of what is going on around me.
I have more energy and the pain in my hip has greatly reduced to a level where it is bearable now and doesn’t cause me any discomfort as it did before. I can move more freely but I’m still restricted in my range of motion by the arthritis. I can see better, smell better. Hear better. The weight hasn’t started to come off just yet, but it will do with time.
I feel human again, like a person who has thrown off the cloak of alcohol that has been disguising who they really are to the world and to themselves. Life is different, more interesting, more wonderous, so much more to discover in a new world full of sights, sounds and smells that have been dulled by the alcoholic cloak.
I feel like a changed person, a new person. I might be about to enter my final years as I approach my late 50s, but I’m far from done living and I have so much life to live and give before my time is up.
It’s now after 9pm and I’ve had another alcohol free day. I did think about going out and getting a bottle of wine, but I resisted and did a lot of uni work instead, had a nap after and the feeling had passed and now I’m feeling good again.
I’ve had a quiet day, lots of uni work done, but a good day, and mentally and physically I’m feeling so much better than I have in years. Tomorrow is another day and we’ll see what it brings, but for now I’m looking forward to a good nights sleep and waking up ready for whatever the day has for me.
The Autistic FellRunner 