Tuesday, 27 June 2023
It’s late afternoon and it’s turning into ‘one of those days’ that we all have from time to time.
I woke with a hangover and the thought of getting up early, going to the gym and then into uni didn’t fill me with enthusiasm. I still got up though, well really to go to the toilet, but when I was up I decided to have breakfast and take things from there. Breakfast done, I got my gym kit on and headed down to the gym. I parked up, close to the gym and I was working out just after 7am. This for me was a miracle, as I’m not a morning person. The workout went well, spin bike, X-Trainer, and some other instruments of torture, before I showered and headed to my office.
The walk to my office is only short but it was labourious as my right hip was playing up making progress slow. Once in, I opened my book and started reading and making notes. And then it happened. My eyes felt heavy, reading became difficult and I was struggling to stay awake. I ploughed on though. I’m not a regular reader so I’m hoping that once I get into the habit of reading it will become easier and more natural. I lasted till just after 12pm, when I had finished reading the chapter and headed home. The chapter was interesting and worthwhile reading, and I will be reading it again soon, as I have some tasks to do from it.
Home via Tesco’s, and the now, usual routine of something to eat, housework and doing anything but uni work, until I hit the bottle once again and before I knew it the day was over and I was heading to bed, tired, drunk and with an aching and sore right hip.
I know I have choices to make though. I don’t function in a morning, no matter how hard I try so next time it’ll be go into uni later and go to the gym when I have finished my uni work. Secondly, I can’t carry on drinking and thinking I can go to the gym and do uni work. I can’t and something has to give, and it has to be alcohol. If I don’t I’m going to end up staring at the bottom of an empty bottle wondering about what might have been and still stuck in the same place, wishing I could get away from here. I need to change and only I can do it.
The Autistic FellRunner 